Two years ago, this exact week, I felt like God had completely abandoned me. Left me to die in the emptiness of this world without Him. I didn't feel Him anymore. I didn't feel guilty for the bad things I was doing, I didn't care. Until I realized that God didn't leave me, I had walked away from Him. Leaving everything I had been taught all my life; picking up alcohol, drugs and boys and traveled a different path. A path that so many have taken along with me. A path that will only lead to destruction and death. A path that satan has constructed himself.
Even two years ago when I felt like I had no way of returning to God, he opened a door. Africa. The whole time thinking God was quiet and invisible, he was working. My aunt Julie has been teaching our Wednesday night class that story of Esther. Even though I am a helper, I have been just as excited to learn as the kids were.
God took one normal girl and saved an entire nation. Esther obeyed and saved thousands of lives. God's name is not mentioned one time in the book of Esther. I believe that is for a specific purpose. You may not feel God moving and you might not see Him working...but He is. He is behind the scenes, orchestrating every single moment of your life.
Then BAM! You're one normal girl making a difference!
The past two years, God has worked in my life like never before. He has allowed me to be His hands and feet in an orphanage home of 67 kids. He has allowed me to help people back home through my testimony. He has allowed me to love on inner city kids in Charlotte. He has allowed me to stay sober. He has made me into a woman that my 18 year old self (2 years ago) would have thought was never possible.
And to think, this was His plan for me all along...
Jeremiah 29:11
"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord. "Plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."
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